Hey there, beautiful ones. Let’s talk about something I’ve experienced my entire life—and maybe you have too. You know that moment when someone just randomly goes off on you? No warning. No buildup. Just boom—an emotional grenade right in your lap. You’re sitting there like, Wait… what just happened? Welcome to the club of Light Bringers Anonymous.
Apparently, My Face Says “Tell Me Your Trauma” (Then Yell at Me About It)
As far back as I can remember, I’ve had this curious effect on people. Whether I was in a classroom, the grocery store, or minding my sparkly business at a cookout, I somehow attracted… chaos. Not the fun kind either. The “someone’s about to emotionally unload on you while pretending it’s your fault” kind.
Now, when I was little, my parents—God love them—always thought I had to be the problem. Because obviously, a child just breathes wrong and the whole neighborhood unites to make her life a telenovela. 🙄
But seriously, I’d get caught in the crossfire of other people’s emotional storms, and I had no clue why. It made me question myself all the time. What did I do? Was my tone off? Did I look too confident? (Spoiler alert: it was the confidence.)
As I got older, the faces changed, but the pattern stayed the same. Adults just became more sophisticated with their cruelty—smiling at me while secretly simmering until they found just the right moment to snap. And oh honey, when they snapped… they snapped hard.
Turns Out, It Was Never Me. It Was My Freaking Light.
Healing has a funny way of handing you the manual to your own life. After years of therapy, soul-searching, spiritual awakenings, and asking the universe “Why me tho?”—the answer finally hit me like a cosmic brick: It wasn’t me. It was my light.
Yep. That radiant, powerful, glowing, soul-searing light of mine. The one that shines even when I’m just chilling in my sweatpants eating mango slices and minding my business. That light triggers people.
You see, when someone’s been living comfortably in their unhealed wounds and shadows, the presence of someone who’s doing the work—who’s shedding, healing, loving, rising—becomes a threat. Not because you’re doing anything wrong, but because you remind them of everything they haven’t faced yet. And instead of sitting with their discomfort like a grown adult, they project. Hard.
And I feel it. Before they even show it. I can sense when someone’s struggling with my presence. They squirm, they deflect, they gossip, or they keep score like I signed up to play an emotional dodgeball game I didn’t even know existed. But I no longer internalize it. Because it’s not mine to carry.
Now, do I always see the blow-up coming? Nope. Sometimes I still get caught off guard. But these days, when the volcano erupts, I’m standing there with spiritual popcorn like, “Oh wow, you really showed your whole demon just now, huh?” 😅
Here’s the kicker: when you truly shine from within, you don’t even have to defend yourself. The light speaks for itself. People see who’s acting a fool and who’s not. Every time. The ones who explode? They lose credibility without you lifting a finger. Karma’s real-time, baby.
If You’re Feeling Alone, It’s Not Rejection—It’s Divine Protection
If you’re reading this and thinking, Wow, this is me, let me tell you something that took me decades to realize: It’s not your fault. It’s not your attitude, your tone, your boundaries, or your standards. It’s your light. And the right people will never run from that light.
They may squirm at first—because growing is uncomfortable—but they’ll stay. They’ll want to grow. They’ll lean into the warmth instead of being blinded by the brightness. And those are your people. That’s your soul tribe. That’s your Phoenix flock.
So if you’re sitting in solitude right now, wondering why it feels so hard to trust, to connect, to find your people—please don’t dim yourself. Don’t fold your wings to fit into someone’s shadow. Don’t shrink to soothe someone else’s unhealed wounds. Your light is your greatest gift. It will protect you, guide you, and yes—weed out anyone who isn’t ready to rise with you.
Let them fall away. Let them go. Let your glow do the talking.
I believe in you. And remember, as always, I love you. 💙
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